Every human is faced with difficult decisions, sometimes even blinded by them. They are never easy to make. To my best friend, the hardest decision she has ever been faced with is who she takes to prom. But I am now faced with one that is beyond me.  The decision I’m faced with is to give my son up for adoption or to become a teen mom.  He is currently in the hospital and growing stronger every day.

Everyone is telling me to keep him. My friends say they'll help. But the truth is, babies are cute. Everyone loves them, so of course they want me to keep him! They don’t have to wake up in the middle of the night to feed him like I’ll have to do. But just by looking at him and seeing the same eyes on his face that I see when I look in the mirror, waking up in the middle of the night just to feed him doesn’t even matter to me. I love him. I want to be the BEST mom that I can possibly be for him, because he deserves it.

Being so young and still in high school would hold me back from being the best mom possible. I want him to have every opportunity to be as happy. I don’t want him to ever have to want for anything.

Adoption has come to mind... I could give him to someone who is more than ready to be a parent.

Or I could keep him and work my way up to being that kind of parent. My son and I would grow up together instead of me "growing him up".

That doesn’t set well with me, but, on the other, hand neither does adoption. I know I’m not ready to be a parent, but I want to be. In this situation my wants and emotions will have to be put on hold in order to do what is right for my son.

That’s the first step in becoming the best mom I can possibly be for my child. Whatever decision I decide to make, will not be for myself, or my friends; it will be for my son. Even though I never thought I would ever have to make this decision I need to, even if it happens to break me. The only thing that matters now is my son’s future, and the decision I have to make to help him attain his destiny.