Betrayal means to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling, this definition is provided by dictionary.com. I’m using this word in my blog because it is exactly what I am feeling right now.

In all honesty, I have been betrayed before by people who mean nothing to me, so it’s easy for me to brush it off but for someone you care about and even love with so much of your heart to betray you is a completely different story.

You’re probably wondering “Well who in God’s name did you love that betrayed you so much?” Well it had to be my best friend. I mean it’s not like she stole my boyfriend or anything because that wouldn’t be possible and if it were, well her and I would question it very much.

She hurt me and my best friends (her best friends as well). You see she was in a relationship with this guy, who was bad and still is. He hurt her and called her names and he would diss her own best friends. He said in these exact words, “I don’t know why Chris is crying over this guy, it’s not like it’s going to work out. Come on (best friend’s name) you know for a fact it doesn’t work out, it isn’t right. Just look at your brother and his relationship, that didn’t work out either.”

One - how dare you say that it’s not right, because you don’t know me okay, and you have no right to judge me! Two- you don’t even know her brother, at all. You don’t know him, and I pray to God that you never will because he is great and that relationship was bad, yes, but they do work, and they are right!

The worst part is when he told her this, when he said that it didn’t work and that it’s not right and then about her BROTHER of all people who aren’t even in the relationship. He brings him up, just so she knows how he feels about it, and then she stays with him. She actually stays with him, as if it didn’t even bother her at all. As if what he said was just a hit to her foot and then it went away. Did she ever think about me, about how it hurt me that he said something so hurtful and so horrible toward me? Look, there a lot of people like me okay and honestly you have to get over this prejudice towards us, okay. There will always be people in this world that are just like me, and you’ll have to run into them.  I bet if you ever got a job and your boss was just like me and he found out how you were like, you would totally be fired and kicked to the curb.

I feel sorry for my best friend… I feel sorry for her because she has to feel like she must stay with this meany, and I feel sorry because when I tried to tell her how I felt about them getting back she didn’t want to hear it, at all. The sad part is she just lost the one best friend that would defend her and help her. She lost two other best friends who would be there for her night and day and stay with her through thick and thin but she didn’t care. She didn’t care about us. All she cared about was her happiness, but is she really happy? Or is she just scared to be alone?